suffering
True Faith vs. Intellectual Pride
August 9, 2010
In my post Seeking God’s Will I introduced readers to my dear friend Father Philip Schuster, OSB (RIP). I am reading his book again as part of my ongoing journey of suffering with joy. His simplicity of heart was very inspiring and it opened my eyes to having greater trust in God. We will never achieve the holiness God desires for us if we don’t learn this lesson because our intellectual pride will always block our surrender to Him. To the extent we refuse to surrender we limit our ability to love.

Three Children of Fatima
Saints are not made overnight. Achieving great charity, and that is the meaning of being a saint, is done minute-by-minute, hour-by-hour, day-by-day with much toe-stubbing, ankle-twisting and knee-skinning along the way. The first step seems to me to empty ourselves of our intellectual pride - and sometimes that’s like bailing out a boat with a leaky bucket – so that we follow the exhortation of Jesus: Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a child, shall not enter into it. (Lk. 18: 17). Faith is to be received Jesus tells us, simply, as a child believes his parents, with open-hearted trust in God and an emptying of self. If we do not become child-like, we make no room in our hearts for faith.
Here is that beautiful, child-like simplicity from Father Philip:
Human reason or intellect enters into faith and has a very important place. But in faith, reason isn’t there to question what God has said or to determine what is true. For by faith we already know what is true. God has told us. Reason is there to study the meaning of it all, to see the beauty and goodness of it all, to make the truth my own, to respond to it and live it. But not to question it! For we know it is true, once God has revealed it.
As soon as you question what God has said, you indicate little faith or no faith at all. Consider what happened to Zechariah (see Luke 1:20). Faith demands that I keep an open mind to what God has to say, and that when I believe, I believe simply because God has spoken…
It just may be true that saying we believe is not necessarily proof of real faith. Perhaps we often accept some truth or some moral law, not because we are convinced that God has taught it, but because it seems right to us and fits our desires at present. Proof of this, at least proof enough for us to take warning, comes from the fact that if something taught by the Church today doesn’t seem reasonable to us, we hesitate or even refuse to accept it. Which more or less proves that we are guided all along by our own reasoning power and not by faith. For again, faith is essentially a simple accepting because God has spoken.
Father Philip cuts to the heart of the matter. When I think of the times I doubted in the past, it was because I allowed the devil to confuse me. He only does this when our willfulness rules us and we press forward into sin because we want to indulge. I can truthfully say that any time I asked God for a deeper understanding of a truth of the Faith, He always answered me. Sometimes He made me wait awhile. Sometimes He showed me right away. But He never denied me the grace to see the beauty, goodness, and harmony of it all, nor the grace as Father Philip writes, “to respond to it and live it.”
I’ll be back with more from Father Philip soon.
Moshe Tzvi HaLevi Berger – Painter of the Psalms
July 30, 2010
Since I began participating in the meme “Praying the Psalms” and stumbled on the work of Moshe Tzvi Halevi Berger, I have been thinking about this man and his work. What contribution might his paintings make to my spiritual life and my understanding of our heavenly Father? What of his life will contribute to my understanding of Orthodox Judaism? What might it tell of the minds and hearts of devout Jews at the time of Jesus? Of devout Jews of today?
These subjects may not be important to many, but I am always thinking of how we Catholics can possibly bridge the gap between our understanding of Christ and that of others. Who knows what role the answers to my questions will play in gathering others to Him? Perhaps none, but learning more will make me a better, more thankful Christian and deepen my awe of how God works in others. Of that I am sure.
To understand Berger’s paintings, it is important to understand the man. Born in 1925 in Transylvania, Berger is no ordinary person although he looks like the quintessential Jewish grandfather. He is someone I wish I could sit down and speak with for many days because of his fascinating life and work.
Berger is descended from a long line of Hassidic Rabbis. As a young man he was interned in a Nazi prison camp for several years and after being liberated completed medical school to became an oral surgeon. By 1957 he quit medical practice to study in Paris at the Ecole des Beaux Arts. He also studied in Italy at Rome’s Instituto de Belle Arte and became a successful commercial artist. God was working in Berger in the midst of his secular success, however. His artistic focus changed dramatically when he began studying the Torah and Kabbalah. In 1982 as he began living as an observant Jew, he was experiencing that deep longing only God can satisfy.
A short departure here: the Torah is the five books of Moses. The Kabbalah is, according to Wikipedia
a discipline and school of thought concerned with the mystical aspect of Rabbinic Judaism. It is a set of esoteric teachings meant to explain the relationship between an eternal and mysterious Creator and the mortal and finite universe (His creation).
As in New Age systems that corrupt Christian teaching and mash eastern mysticism with Christian spirituality, some unscrupulous people promote the Kabbalah as holding the “secrets” of all wisdom. It’s all gnosticism and what the attraction to this perversion of truth holds for many is beyond me. I can say that based on what Berger writes about his paintings, he is giving expression to the mystery of God’s love for man in his art, making verses of the Psalms become visual. Superstition and gnosticism appear to play no part in his thinking or work.
After moving to the United States in the early 1980s, Berger gained renown for very large Kabbalistic murals he painted in Florida and Brooklyn, New York. The latter was six stories high. In 1988 he began his series of Psalm paintings which would take him fifteen years to complete. The year 1992 saw him move to Jerusalem where in 1995 he founded the Museum of Psalms in a building located in the courtyard of the synagogue built by former Israel Chief Rabbi, Avraham Yitzhak Kook. Berger lives in a single room next to the museum and visitors often are privileged to have him as a guide when viewing his works.
As if illustrating all 150 Psalms was not enough, Berger embarked on the task of painting 42 images on healing, light, and meditation called the Sun series. Based on the Zohar, these are no less deep than the Psalm paintings. Completed in 2007, they are part of the collection at the Museum of Psalms.
Another short departure: the Zohar is a group of books including commentary on the mystical aspects of the Torah (the five books of Moses). Wikipedia says,
The Zohar contains a discussion of the nature of God, the origin and structure of the universe, the nature of souls, redemption, the relationship of Ego to Darkness and “true self” to “The Light of God,” and the relationship between the “universal energy” and man. Its scriptural exegesis can be considered an esoteric form of the Rabbinic literature known as Midrash, which elaborates on the Torah.
The goal of Moshe Tzvi HaLevi Berger in painting the Psalms was to “bring inspiration to the souls of many who seek spiritual enlightenment and do not live by bread alone.”
These are the very words Jesus spoke in Matt. 4:4:
But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God
and Luke 4:4:
And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, That man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God
derived from Deuteronomy 8:3:
And he humbled thee, and suffered thee to hunger, and fed thee with manna, which thou knewest not, neither did thy fathers know; that he might make thee know that man doth not live by bread only, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of the LORD doth man live.
Berger has had more than 100 one-man shows on three continents. Had it not been for the internet, I would never have discovered this great and unique spiritual art which rightly belongs to the Judeo-Christian heritage. In my next post I will write a little about the elements of symbolism in his works but for now, let me say that he has inspired me on my journey of suffering with joy.
Seeking God’s Will
July 23, 2010
Over the past couple of months I’ve been thinking of a dear friend, Father Philip Schuster, O.S.B., one of the monks murdered at Conception Abbey on June 10, 2002 by a gunman whose motives will forever remain unknown as he had no connection to any of the monks nor to the abbey and left nothing in spoken word or writing to say why he did it.
Lloyd Robert Jeffress got in his car with an AK 47 and a .22 caliber sawed off rifle and drove a couple of hours from Kansas City to Conception, Missouri to execute as many monks as he could find. Father Philip, age 84 and monastery porter, was shot in the torso and finished off with a shot to the head after he fell. The bullet hole remains in the hallway floor. Brother Damian, known as “the weather monk” was also killed. Two other monks who entered the hallway from their offices were shot, gravely wounded, and recovered after a long time. When Jeffress couldn’t find anybody else to shoot, he went back down the hall and through the same door to the basilica he had used to enter the monastery, and killed himself. In the midst of mourning the Abbot re-consecrated the basilica the next day.
I made a some private retreats at the abbey with Father Philip and visited him there with my husband on our way north to see friends. He had been the novice master of my pastor and he was just the person I needed at that time of my life. On one of my visits, he gave me a copy of the book he wrote, Seeking God’s Will Through Faith, Hope & Charity, full of the simple wisdom about life only a very prayerful monk with vast pastoral experience could write.
Father Philip was everything a priest should be and solid as a rock theologically. He set a good example for me in the spiritual life and I often think of things he said in our conferences. One typical exchange between us happened when I was sitting in his porter’s office and we were discussing the rosary. Father pulled an old, really old broken rosary out of his breast pocket (it came from a monk who died in 1927 and I have one just like it from the same monk) and waving it in the air said, “I love praying the rosary. I don’t worry about getting all the prayers in. Sometimes I just get a good meditation on the mystery and don’t worry about finishing every decade.” In other words, keep to the purpose of what you’re doing and don’t sweat the small stuff. Of the monk who blessed our rosaries so long ago he said, “Father Lucas hung every indulgence under the sun on these rosaries. I don’t mind that it’s broken. Our Lady doesn’t mind if we pray on broken rosaries.”And Father Philip prayed on his so much he plumb wore it out.
If you boiled down the essence of Father Philip, it would be simplicity and faithfulness in conforming ourselves to God’s will. He was kind and gentle, but very firm about obeying God’s laws. He was utterly faithful to his monastic vows and using that old, broken rosary was a perfect example of his approach to the vow of poverty. He clearly knew what was important and what was not.
Because life itself is threatened with such great intensity from so many sides these days, and peace of soul can be elusive for the person in the world, I decided to read a little of Father Philip’s book again every day and share some passages with you here. This is a great book that never gets boring no matter how many times you read it. Father Philip was a gift from God to all, but especially to the tortured soul who needs to learn to suffer with joy, and I’m sure he brought many to God. He lived what he wrote.
From Chapter Two: Faith:
“He who through faith is righteous shall live” (Rom. 1: 17). In an age when personal freedom is so much stressed, it seems helpful and necessary to try to clarify our notion of faith.
Many of us were born into a Christian family. Many of us, especially Catholics, were baptized as infants, or when we were very young. I do not wish to see this practice changed. I agree with it. But it does have at least one danger. We are prone to think that faith, like love, comes easily, naturally, without real effort on our part. We assume that anyone who professes to be Catholic, and who goes to church, has a deep faith. I challenge that notion.
It is true that when the child receives the sacrament of baptism, the virtue of faith is implanted in the soul, like a seed. Whatever else that virtue may be at the time of baptism, it is an inclination, a force, that inclines us, helps us, gives us the attitude of one ready to believe, ready to be taught by God, relying simply on His wisdom, His fidelity, His goodness. Relying on God who can neither deceive nor be deceived.
“Relying on God who can neither deceive nor be deceived.” Wherever lies or deception of any kind exists, there is Satan who is the clever master of re-direction and re-definition. We see and hear this every day in the news media. Something is forever being presented as something it is not and people rely on these deceptions to justify the unjustifiable. A fair question to ask is, am I ready to be taught by God, or do I habitually look elsewhere to be told what I want to hear?
Sunday Snippets – A Catholic Carnival
June 6, 2010
Welcome to Sunday Snippets, a gathering of Catholic bloggers who get together at This That and The Other Thing to share our favorite posts. Whether you are a blogger or not, you are welcome to join us.
This week I posted a short poem called The Kiss of Christ, written by a Trappist monk, which I found in a file belonging to my dad.
Most Catholics know of St. Pio da Pietrelcina. I posted St. Pio’s Prayer After Communion for those who are interested. I gave 100 copies of it to a local hospital chaplain to give to people when he takes patients Holy Communion.
At Sabbath Moments I wrote about Felix Mendelssohn’s oratorio Elijah and the beautiful aria, “O Rest in the Lord”, including a YouTube video for those who would like to hear it. No kidding, it is gorgeous.
At Praying the Psalms – Psalm 21, I wrote short comments on a few of the verses. Psalm 20 and 21 go together in the exaltation of the King and victory in battle.
And now I am going to enjoy the work of my fellow bloggers.
The Kiss of Christ
June 2, 2010
My dad passed away last September. When mom passed away in March one of dad’s files was given to me to sort through. In it I found this poem he must have discovered on the internet because it was printed from his printer. According to the Passionist Nuns of St. Joseph Monastery at In the Shadows of His Wings it was written by a Trappist monk. The poem fits perfectly with the purpose of this site and is an indication of the rich interior life my dad enjoyed as he grew older and closer to death. I appreciate his example and thank God for having given me such a good parent.

St. Dominic Adoring the Crucifixion, 1440s, Fra Angelico (b. ca. 1400, Vicchio nell Mugello, d. 1455, Roma), Fresco, Convento di San Marco, Florence
The Kiss of Christ
Lo, there He hangs, ashened figure -- pinioned to the wood. God grant that I might love him -- even as I should. I draw a little closer -- to touch the face divine. And then He leans to whisper -- "Oh foolish child of mine. If now I should embrace you -- my hands would stain you red. And if I leaned to kiss you -- the thorns would pierce your head." 'Twas then I learned in meekness -- that love demands a price. 'Twas then I knew that suffering -- is but the kiss of Christ.
Online Eucharistic Adoration
May 17, 2010
Thanks to Karinann over at Blessings for The Day for informing her readers about online Eucharistic adoration. Of course we can pray to Jesus anytime. He is always with us. But for us Catholics, adoration is very special. Under the appearance of bread He is present personally – Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. The King of creation wills to be with us and wills us to be with Him so that He can continue to nourish us as He did in the Eucharistic celebration on Sunday. It is by faith we know this to be true.
So many of us are unable to get out much because of our infirmities or other aspects of our life situation. The site, Savior.org is a wonderful way to spend time with Jesus much more often. Our Lord in the Most Blessed Sacrament is presented live via webcam from the Chapel of Divine Love in Philadelphia (the City of Brotherly Love – how apropos), PA – a source of perpetual Eucharistic adoration by the Holy Spirit Adoration Sisters since 1916.
This is an answer to prayer. I have wanted to be able to spend time in adoration and been frustrated by a number of practical factors. When I read about fellow bloggers who have stopped for a short visit with Jesus at a chapel, I felt happy for them and sad for me. Now I can say the Divine Office in His presence, do spiritual reading, or just pray.
Click on the picture above or on the link and it will take you to the live feed. This site has much to offer, too. Here are some paragraphs from their “About online adoration” section:
A Powerful Channel for the Aged, Lonely and Suffering
The favorite of Our Savior, the aging, lonely and suffering are those in greatest need of His Love. The on-line access available through Savior.org, provides new hope for these individuals stemming from the electronic access they can now have to the Living Presence of Our Lord in the Most Blessed Sacrament. The suffering will have new opportunities to unite their pain with the passion of Our Lord, yielding merits for their souls and the souls of others. The aged, free from the distractions of their earlier years, can now spend increasing hours in the presence of Our Lord strengthening their bond to Him during the twilight of their lives. And the lonely will benefit from the abundance of love and hope poured forth from this Most Faithful of Friends.
Technology is a wonderful thing if used to do God’s will. Join us at Savior.org in ‘taking back the Internet for Christ’.
Suggestions on How to Utilize Savior.org
On-line Adoration - Be with Our Lord, centered on Him wholly and completely. Sit in silence with Him – The Sacred Doctor of human hearts. Utilize some of the many on-line devotional aides to structure a Holy Hour with Him. Or pray your own favorite adoration prayers and meditations.
Liturgy of the Hours and Other Daily Prayers - Enrich your daily recitation of the liturgy of the hours and other daily prayer routines by conducting them in the presence of a live electronic image of Our Lord in the Most Blessed Sacrament.
Invite Our Lord into your day – In your office or at home conducting your daily activities, offer your work as a prayer to Our Lord. We offer a low-bandwidth feed for those who wish to maintain the live feed over an extended period of time, as well as a static image for those who cannot maintain a persistent connection (dialup users).
Family Rosaries - Say your family rosary in the Presence of the Blessed Sacrament on-line.
Saying Goodnight – Our children have quickly adopted a routine of wanting to ’say goodnight to Jesus’ on-line. Before they go to bed, they will ask us to bring up the Blessed Sacrament online, then they will say their evening prayers and say ‘goodnight’ to Jesus as the last act before they climb into bed.
For only $10 you can purchase flowers for the altar and everyone participating will pray for your intentions for that week. I encourage my readers to take advantage of this opportunity to spend more time with Jesus. Prayer is an important part of wellness.
The Heart of Personal Holiness
May 5, 2010
Usually I wouldn’t create a long post, but Bishop Slattery’s landmark sermon at the Solemn Pontifical Mass April 25th on the fifth anniversary of Pope Benedict’s ascension to the chair of St. Peter fits so perfectly with the purpose of this blog I include all his words. Celebrated at the Shrine of the Basilica of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, DC, the Mass was a work of exceeding beauty, glory and praise, with a lesson to all who call themselves Christian. This homily will go down in the history of the Catholic Church in America as one of the most profound and spiritual ever given by a bishop.
We have much to discuss – you and I …
… much to speak of on this glorious occasion when we gather together in the glare of the world’s scrutiny to celebrate the fifth anniversary of the ascension of Joseph Ratzinger to the throne of Peter.
We must come to understand how it is that suffering can reveal the mercy of God and make manifest among us the consoling presence of Jesus Christ, crucified and now risen from the dead.
We must speak of this mystery today, first of all because it is one of the great mysteries of revelation, spoken of in the New Testament and attested to by every saint in the Church’s long history, by the martyrs with their blood, by the confessors with their constancy, by the virgins with their purity and by the lay faithful of Christ’s body by their resolute courage under fire.
But we must also speak clearly of this mystery because of the enormous suffering which is all around us and which does so much to determine the culture of our modern age.
From the enormous suffering of His Holiness these past months to the suffering of the Church’s most recent martyrs in India and Africa, welling up from the suffering of the poor and the dispossessed and the undocumented, and gathering tears from the victims of abuse and neglect, from women who have been deceived into believing that abortion was a simple medical procedure and thus have lost part of their soul to the greed of the abortionist, and now flowing with the heartache of those who suffer from cancer, diabetes, AIDS, or the emotional diseases of our age, it is the sufferings of our people that defines the culture of our modern secular age.
This enormous suffering which can take on so many varied physical, mental, and emotional forms will reduce us to fear and trembling – if we do not remember that Christ – our Pasch – has been raised from the dead. Our pain and anguish could dehumanize us, for it has the power to close us in upon ourselves such that we would live always in chaos and confusion – if we do not remember that Christ – our hope – has been raised for our sakes. Jesus is our Pasch, our hope and our light.
He makes himself most present in the suffering of his people and this is the mystery of which we must speak today, for when we speak of His saving presence and proclaim His infinite love in the midst of our suffering, when we seek His light and refuse to surrender to the darkness, we receive that light which is the life of men; that light which, as Saint John reminds us in the prologue to his Gospel, can never be overcome by the darkness, no matter how thick, no matter how choking.
Our suffering is thus transformed by His presence. It no longer has the power to alienate or isolate us. Neither can it dehumanize us nor destroy us. Suffering, however long and terrible it may be, has only the power to reveal Christ among us, and He is the mercy and the forgiveness of God.
The mystery then, of which we speak, is the light that shines in the darkness, Christ Our Lord, Who reveals Himself most wondrously to those who suffer so that suffering and death can do nothing more than bring us to the mercy of the Father.
But the point which we must clarify is that Christ reveals Himself to those who suffer in Christ, to those who humbly accept their pain as a personal sharing in His Passion and who are thus obedient to Christ’s command that we take up our cross and follow Him. Suffering by itself is simply the reminder that death will claim these mortal bodies of ours, but suffering in Christ is the promise that we will be raised with Christ, when our mortality will be remade in his immortality and all that in our lives which is broken because it is perishable and finite will be made imperishable and incorrupt.
Crucifixion of St. Peter, 1600, Caravaggio (b. 1571, Caravaggio, d. 1610, Porto Ercole), Oil on canvas, Cerasi Chapel, Santa Maria del Popolo, Rome
This is the meaning of Peter’s claim that he is a witness to the sufferings of Christ and thus one who has a share in the glory yet to be revealed. Once Peter grasped the overwhelming truth of this mystery, his life was changed. The world held nothing for Peter. For him, there was only Christ.
This is, as you know, quite a dramatic shift for the man who three times denied Our Lord, the man to whom Jesus said, “Thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my Church, that the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.”
Christ’s declaration to Peter that he would be the rock, the impregnable foundation, the mountain of Zion upon which the new Jerusalem would be constructed, follows in Matthew’s Gospel Saint Peter’s dramatic profession of faith, when the Lord asks the Twelve, “Who do people say that I am?” and Peter, impulsive as always, responds “You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God.”
Only later – much later – would Peter come to understand the full implication of this first Profession of Faith. Peter would still have to learn that to follow Christ, to truly be His disciple, one must let go of everything which the world considers valuable and necessary, and become powerless. This is the mystery which confounds independent Peter. It is the mystery which still confounds us: to follow Christ, one must surrender everything and become obedient with the obedience of Christ, for no one gains access to the Kingdom of the Father, unless he enter through the humility and the obedience of Jesus.
Peter had no idea that eventually he would find himself fully accepting this obedience, joyfully accepting his share in the Passion and Death of Christ. But Peter loved Our Lord and love was the way by which Peter learned how to obey. “Lord, you know that I love thee,” Peter affirms three times with tears; and three times Christ commands him to tend to the flock that gathers at the foot of Calvary – and that is where we are now.
Peter knew that Jesus was the true Shepherd, the one Master and the only teacher; the rest of us are learners and the lesson we must learn is obedience, obedience unto death. Nothing less than this, for only when we are willing to be obedient with the very obedience of Christ will we come to recognize Christ’s presence among us.
Obedience is thus the heart of the life of the disciple and the key to suffering in Christ and with Christ. This obedience, is must be said, is quite different from obedience the way it is spoken of and dismissed in the world.
For those in the world, obedience is a burden and an imposition. It is the way by which the powerful force the powerless to do obeisance. Simply juridical and always external, obedience is the bending that breaks, but a breaking which is still less painful than the punishment meted out for disobedience. Thus for those in the world obedience is a punishment which must be avoided; but for Christians, obedience is always personal, because it is centered on Christ. It is a surrender to Jesus Whom we love.
For those whose lives are centered in Christ, obedience is that movement which the heart makes when it leaps in joy having once discovered the truth.
Let us consider, then, that Christ has given us both the image of his obedience and the action by which we are made obedient.
The image of Christ’s obedience is His Sacred Heart. That Heart, exposed and wounded must give us pause, for man’s heart is generally hidden and secret. In the silence of his own heart, each of us discovers the truth of who we are, the truth of why we are silent when we should speak, or bothersome and quarrelsome when we should be silent. In our hidden recesses of the heart, we come to know the impulses behind our deeds and the reasons why we act so often as cowards and fools.
But while man’s heart is generally silent and secret, the Heart of the God-Man is fully visible and accessible. It too reveals the motives behind our Lord’s self-surrender. It was obedience to the Father’s will that mankind be reconciled and our many sins forgiven us. “Son though he was,” the Apostle reminds us, “Jesus learned obedience through what He suffered.” Obedient unto death, death on a cross, Jesus asks his Father to forgive us that God might reveal the full depth of his mercy and love. “Father, forgive them,” he prayed, “for they know not what they do.”
Christ’s Sacred Heart is the image of the obedience which Christ showed by his sacrificial love on Calvary. The Sacrifice of Calvary is also for us the means by which we are made obedient and this is a point which you must never forget: at Mass, we offer ourselves to the Father in union with Christ, who offers Himself in perfect obedience to the Father. We make this offering in obedience to Christ who commanded us to “Do this in memory of me” and our obediential offering is perfected in the love with which the Father receives the gift of His Son.
Do not be surprised then that here at Mass, our bloodless offering of the bloody sacrifice of Calvary is a triple act of obedience. First, Christ is obedient to the Father, and offers Himself as a sacrifice of reconciliation. Secondly, we are obedient to Christ and offer ourselves to the Father with Jesus the Son; and thirdly, in sharing Christ’s obedience to the Father, we are made obedient to a new order of reality, in which love is supreme and life reigns eternal, in which suffering and death have been defeated by becoming for us the means by which Christ’s final victory, his future coming, is made manifest and real today.
Suffering then, yours, mine, the Pontiffs, is at the heart of personal holiness, because it is our sharing in the obedience of Jesus which reveals his glory. It is the means by which we are made witnesses of his suffering and sharers in the glory to come.
Do not be dismayed that there many in the Church have not yet grasped this point, and fewer still in the world will even dare to consider it, but you know this to be true and it is enough, for ten men who whisper the truth speak louder than a hundred million who lie.
If then someone asks of what we spoke today, tell them we spoke only of the truth. If someone asks why it is you came to this Mass, say that it was so that you could be obedient with Christ. If someone asks about the homily, tell them it was about a mystery and if someone asks what I said of the present situation, tell them only that we must – all of us – become saints through what we suffer.
Sunday Snippets – A Catholic Carnival
May 2, 2010
It’s Sunday Snippets time where Catholic bloggers share posts with each other. Hosted by RAnn at This, That and The Other Thing, you can find new friends and interesting posts by others. If you are a Catholic blogger and want to join us, just write a post about your favorite posts of the week, link to RAnn’s blog, and leave a link at her blog to your post.
On the way home from a trip to Texas last week, I read Roy Shoeman’s book, Salvation Is from the Jews: The Role of Judaism in Salvation History. I liked it so much I put it in Barb’s Custom Shop. The similarities between his discussion of St. Edith Stein’s writings of suffering for the Jews and the insights I have concerning deliverance of our country through suffering were consoling. Soon I will write a book review, but you may enjoy my post now: Judaism and the Holocaust – St. Edith Stein. Her final testament is beautiful.
My second post is a reflection on fences and our relationship with God: Fences: Sitting, Straddling, or Using the Gate. Photographing pastured horses gave me the idea and I’ve included a picture I took last week.

Last year's Earth Boxes in mid summer.
My Sabbath Moments post for the week is about keeping life in perspective with a little help from St. Paul.
For those who suffer from debilitating diseases but still want to try growing fresh veggies without a lot of pain, here’s an older post to show how Roger and I are doing it: The Wellness Attitude and Spring Planting. Growing your own vegetables even if you are disabled can be therapeutic. We’ve found it so. This year the garden is coming along fine, but I had to replace one tomato plant the puppy squashed.
Judaism and the Holocaust – St. Edith Stein
April 28, 2010
During a recent trip to the Dallas area I had occasion to purchase Roy Shoeman’s excellent book, Salvation Is from the Jews: The Role of Judaism in Salvation History. In another post I will write a review, but today I want to bring you some words of St. Edith Stein he highlighted that have special significance for those seeking to understand suffering and death in today’s world.
As many contemplatives do, Carmelite nun Teresa Benedicta of the Cross (what a prescient choice of name in religion that was!) kept notes on insights she obtained during prayer. As a Jewish convert to Catholicism, she saw what the Nazis were doing to the Jews in light of the Cross. She wrote of a prayer she made during a holy hour in the convent:
I spoke with the Savior to tell him that I realized it was His Cross that was now being laid upon the Jewish people, that the few who understood this had the responsibility of carrying it in the name of all, and that I myself was willing to do this, if He would only show me how. I left the service with the inner conviction that I had been heard, but uncertain as ever as to what “carrying the Cross” might mean for me.
Later she wrote:
I understood the Cross as the destiny of God’s people, which was beginning to be apparent at the time (1933). I felt that those who understood the Cross of Christ should take it upon themselves on everybody’s behalf…. Beneath the Cross I understood the destiny of God’s people.

St. Edith Stein (Teresa Benedicta of the Cross) 1938 passport photo
All religious write a final testament and St. Teresa Benedicta’s spirituality is evident in hers, penned in 1939:
I joyfully accept in advance the death God has appointed for me, in perfect submission to His most holy will. May the Lord accept my life and death for the honor and glory of His name, for the needs of His holy Church — especially for the preservation, sanctification, and final perfecting of our holy Order, and in particular for the Carmel of Cologne and Echt — for the Jewish people, that the Lord may be received by His own and His Kingdom come in glory, for the deliverance of Germany and peace throughout the world, and finally for all my relatives living and dead and all whom God has given me; may none of them be lost.
She was, with her sister Rosa and a train transport composed entirely of baptized Jews, murdered at Auschwitz.
When reading her words I could not help thinking of the condition of our nation today – the blatant attacks on human life by those in power, the war on marriage and the family waged by perverted souls and government bureaucrats, the corruption of the power elite, and all those who become co-operators in the various evils designed to separate man from God, for that is the final goal of the Enemy. The similarities between the leaders and supporters of Nazi Germany and America’s leaders and their supporters today are much too close in spite of the vigorous denials given voice by the press.
As St. Edith Stein did in her day, do we understand what our society is doing and becoming in the light of the Cross? Underneath all the ideologies of the day, the war is between man and the principalities and powers as St. Paul wrote in Eph. 6:12. A reversal of the path our most powerful leaders are currently on calls for extreme sacrifice. Are we ready as St. Edith Stein was to “joyfully accept in advance” what God has chosen for us to suffer, even death, for the salvation of souls, for our country, for the conversion of sinners?
Suffering and Holiness
March 16, 2010
In the February 2010 issue of Inside the Vatican Robert Moynihan wrote on this subject - that suffering and the cross is “a mystery hidden at the heart of the faith which we must not minimize.”

Agony in the Garden, c.1587, Jacopo Ligozzi (b. 1547, Verona, d. 1627, Firenze), oil on panel, private collection
He points out that “since the Second Vatican Council, when many have rightly stressed that Christians are ‘a Resurrection people,’ but wrongly neglected that…we are a ‘crucifixion people’ with all that implies,” we have, as Catholics, minimized this great mystery. The overwhelming “happy talk” from many pulpits has resulted in a failure by many to comprehend the salvific value of suffering as Pope John Paul II wrote about in Salvifici Dolores. (If you have not read the Pope’s Apostolic Letter, click on the title and you will go to it on the Vatican web site. It is excellent.)
In his editorial, Moynihan quotes New York Archbishop Timothy Dolan on the condition of Haiti:
Haiti is the broken, bloodied body of Christ….Yes, we all have a share in the Resurrection, but as a race redeemed, we also sometimes take part in His Passion. Christ scourged. Christ crucified.
Somehow suffering frees us from worldly attachments if we adopt the right disposition. As we discover our lack of control over our worldly plans and desires, if we submit to God and embrace what He sends us no matter how burdensome, if we fix our eyes on the cross, we see more clearly our dependence on God in a rightly ordered way. He is the one who will deliver us and not we ourselves. This ascent into truth, as it were, is an ascent into holiness if we learn to desire what God wants for us.
It’s easy to forget in the midst of pain and frustration that God wants only our good and that every obstacle He sends us is a sign of love and an opportunity to train our wills and hearts to desire “Thy will be done.” A great good and a great privilege is to be invited by Christ to ascend the cross with Him, to offer up our sufferings with His for the redemption of souls. Let us carry this message of hope to those who have never heard of this way of thinking, that they may find the purpose in their pain and the special place they have in God’s plan.
The Way of Reparation
March 2, 2010
At the offertory of every Mass we offer ourselves and our lives in union with Christ, the perfect Victim, to our heavenly Father. Lent is a time to consider deeply our own sufferings and those of Our Lord, asking God to purify us and to make us whole in His good time.

Dr. Paul Takashi Nagai
One who captured this spirit of unity with the Lamb who was slain and who brought peace to his suffering fellow citizens was Dr. Paul Takashi Nagai, who survived the bombing of Nagasaki. The bishop of the area announced plans for an open-air Requiem Mass to be held next to the ruins of the Cathedral of Maria in the suburb of Urakami, Ground Zero. Crushed into rubble by the blast and then consumed by a raging fire that evening, the once beautiful cathedral called to mind the book of Revelation as Nagai pondered what he would say at the bishop’s invitation to speak at the Mass. Looking at the fallen and blackened timbers as he sat in the rubble, he suddenly knew the message had to be the redemptive dimension of suffering and death.
On November 23, 1945 he faced his burned, bandaged, emaciated and demoralized fellow parishioners who had gathered to pray for their dead in the ancient sacred liturgy of the Church. This is what he said:
On the morning of August 9, a meeting of the Supreme Council of War was in session at Imperial Headquarters, Tokyo, to decide whether Japan would surrender or continue to wage war. At that moment the world stood at a crossroads. A decision had to be made…peace or further cruel bloodshed and carnage.
And just then, at 11:02 A.M., and atom bomb exploded over our suburb. In an instant, eight thousand Christians were called to God, and in a few hours flames turned to ash this venerable Far Eastern holy place.
At midnight that night, our cathedral suddenly burst into flames and was consumed. At exactly that same time in the Imperial Palace, His Majesty the Emperor made known his sacred decision to end the war. On August 15 the Imperial Rescript, which put an end to the fighting, was formally promulgated, and the whole world saw the light of peace. August 15 is also the great feast of the Assumption of the Virgin Mary. It is significant, I believe, that the Urakami Cathedral was dedicated to her. We must ask: Was this convergence of events, the end of the war and the celebration of her feast day, merely coincidental, or was it the mysterious Providence of God?
I have heard that the atom bomb…was destined for another city. Heavy clouds rendered that target impossible, and the American crew headed for the secondary target, Nagasaki. Then a mechanical problem arose, and the bomb was dropped further north than planned and burst right above the cathedral… It was not the American crew, I believe, who chose our suburb. God’s Providence chose Urakami and carried the bomb right above our homes. Is there not a profound relationship between the annihilation of Nagasaki and the end of the war? Was not Nagasaki the chosen victim, the lamb without blemish, slain as a whole burnt offering on an altar of sacrifice, atoning for the sins of all the nations during World War II?
We are the inheritors of Adam’s sin… of Cain’s sin. He killed his brother. Yes, we have forgotten we are God’s children. We have turned to idols and forgotten love. Hating one another, killing one another, joyfully killing one another! At last the evil and horrific conflict came to an end, but mere repentance was not enough for peace…. We had to offer a stupendous sacrifice…. Cities had been leveled, but even that was not enough…. Only this hansai [holocaust] in Nagasaki sufficed, and at that moment God inspired the Emperor to issue the sacred proclamation that ended the war. The Christian flock of Nagasaki was true to the Faith through three centuries of persecution. During the recent war, it prayed ceaselessly for a lasting peace. Here was the one pure lamb that had to be sacrificed as hansai on His altar…so that many millions of lives might be saved.
Happy are those who weep; they shall be comforted. We must walk the way of reparation… ridiculed, whipped, punished for our crimes, sweaty and bloody. But we can turn our minds’ eyes to Jesus carrying His Cross up the hill of Calvary…. The Lord has given; the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Let us be thankful that Nagasaki was chosen for the whole burnt sacrifice! Let us be thankful that through this sacrifice, peace was granted to the world and religious freedom to Japan.
Our large and small sacrifices this Lent are expiation for our sins and those of the world. We cannot know at this time how God will use what we freely offer, but in the next world we will see all those who were lifted up because of them. Dr. Nagai’s words are timeless as truth is timeless. Lord let me always bless you and never complain about anything for the rest of my life!
A Pernicious Construct
March 2, 2010
Today Sandro Magister of chiesa features the content of a very challenging presentation by a Catholic bishop in the depths of the Bible Belt. Here are a couple of excerpts from Archbishop Chaput’s March 1, 2010 address at the Baptist University of Houston on the vocation of Christians in American public life:
Fifty years ago this fall, in September 1960, Sen. John F. Kennedy, the Democratic candidate for president, spoke to the Greater Houston Ministerial Association. He had one purpose. He needed to convince 300 uneasy Protestant ministers, and the country at large, that a Catholic like himself could serve loyally as our nation’s chief executive. Kennedy convinced the country, if not the ministers, and went on to be elected. And his speech left a lasting mark on American politics. It was sincere, compelling, articulate – and wrong. Not wrong about the patriotism of Catholics, but wrong about American history and very wrong about the role of religious faith in our nation’s life. And he wasn’t merely “wrong.” His Houston remarks profoundly undermined the place not just of Catholics, but of all religious believers, in America’s public life and political conversation. Today, half a century later, we’re paying for the damage.
Archbishop Chaput is the foremost American bishop on the subject of Catholic life and politics and is an ardent pro-life advocate. In his talk he continues to lay out the historical development of secularism in our country, starting with the great divorce between religion and politics that was already happening and that Kennedy voiced in 1960.
Early in his remarks, Kennedy said: “I believe in an America where the separation of Church and state is absolute.” [The pernicious construct] Given the distrust historically shown to Catholics in this country, his words were shrewdly chosen. The trouble is, the Constitution doesn’t say that. The Founders and Framers didn’t believe that. And the history of the United States contradicts that. Unlike revolutionary leaders in Europe, the American Founders looked quite favorably on religion. Many were believers themselves. In fact, one of the main reasons for writing the First Amendment’s Establishment Clause – the clause that bars any federally-endorsed Church – was that several of the Constitution’s Framers wanted to protect the publicly funded Protestant Churches they already had in their own states. John Adams actually preferred a “mild and equitable establishment of religion” and helped draft that into the 1780 Massachusetts Constitution.

Crucifixion, 1503, Cranach, Lucas the Elder, pine panel, Alte Pinakothek, Munich
Secularism is poisonous to life itself. It’s why this day the terminally ill, mentally challenged, disabled and elderly have reason to fear for their lives. There is no place for valuing suffering outside of the Christian construct, and no place for respect for life or person. The times we live in are more dangerous to our souls, our country and the world than ever before. Struck loose from Judeo-Christian moorings, life purpose becomes utilitarian and hopeless. Chaput brings forth the challenge to Christians today:
…Christianity is not mainly – or even significantly –- about politics. It’s about living and sharing the love of God. And Christian political engagement, when it happens, is never mainly the task of the clergy. That work belongs to lay believers who live most intensely in the world. Christian faith is not a set of ethics or doctrines. It’s not a group of theories about social and economic justice. All these things have their place. All of them can be important. But a Christian life begins in a relationship with Jesus Christ; and it bears fruit in the justice, mercy and love we show to others because of that relationship. [Yes, Yes, and Yes!]
In closing Chaput said:
We live in a country that was once – despite its sins and flaws – deeply shaped by Christian faith. It can be so again. But we will do that together, or we won’t do it at all. We need to remember the words of St. Hilary from so long ago: “Unum sunt, qui invicem sunt”, they are one, who are wholly for each other. May God grant us the grace to love each other, support each other and live wholly for each other in Jesus Christ – so that we might work together in renewing the nation that has served human freedom so well.
If ever we are to stand up and be counted as genuine, visible followers of Christ doing the very difficult to counteract the spirit of the world, now is the time. The helpless, sick and suffering, by uniting with the sufferings of Christ can be a silent, invisible, potent army of support to those seeking to restore all things in Christ.
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“The Last Train from Hiroshima”
February 26, 2010
My thoughtful husband brought this book home from the library, knowing my great interest in Japan and World War II. At the age of 14 or 15 I read John Hersey’s Hiroshima: The Story of six human beings who survived the explosion of the atom bomb over Hiroshima. Putting it in today’s slang, the book freaked me out. As a child of the Cold War, which I believe began immediately after Hiroshima and Nagasaki though historians will disagree, the fear of a repeat of August, 1945 has been bound to my psyche for life.
A monumental and heart rending work,The Last Train from Hiroshima: The Survivors Look Back (John MacRae Books) tells in graphic detail the results of the most horrific attack man has ever made upon man. Charles Pellegrino’s scientific explanations of the atom bomb’s effects melds with his compassionate portrayal of the survivors whom he quotes in their own words. He reports the instant devastation of people vaporizing before they even knew what was happening to them, buildings disappearing, and many bizarre effects. Some survivors had the patterns of their kimonos permanently dyed into their skin; others had eyesight corrected. A teacher who was inside and facing the direction of the flash carried the imprint of a student’s writing on her face for the rest of her life, yet the student who wrote it vanished completely with the others outside on the playground. Shadows of people, plants, and objects were burned forever into telephone poles, trees, streets, and walls even as those that made them disappeared without a trace.
In the confusion and chaos of the flattened city, survivors and the dying were overcome with a terrible thirst. As the black rain containing radioactive isotopes fell they opened their mouths to take it in and hastened their deaths. Ferocious tornados of fire chased people into the river only to become waterspouts and then emerge as fire on the other side.
Pellegrino spares nothing describing the hellish scene and reporting the words of the survivors who were forbidden by their government to speak publicly about their experiences for many years. To this day scientists cannot explain some of the phenomena after the blast, but this book gives far more scientific information and understanding than any previous work, especially to the average person.
Prominently featured are unforgettable characters who survived both Hiroshima and Nagasaki bombs. They were the ones who staggered over the radioactive wasteland to the train station to catch the only transportation out of Hiroshima to what they thought was safety only to be caught in the second blast three days later over Nagasaki. Some of them were dead in six weeks from radiation poisoning while others lived many years. Most died from cancer caused by radiation effects.
The last survivor, Tsutsomo Yamaguchi, died January 4, 2010 at age 93, the only “official” recognized-by-the-government survivor of both atom bombs. He suffered leukemia, cataracts, and finally stomach cancer from the radiation effects. Yamaguchi traveled to New York in 2006, bringing comfort to families who lost loved ones at ground zero on 9-11 as only he could. Like Dr. Takashi Nagai who survived Nagasaki, he unfailingly brought a message of love and forgiveness to the world. It is sad that when he addressed the United Nations with this message, asking for a ban on nuclear weapons, some people rolled their eyes.
I must say that even though the recounting of deeply disturbing aspects of this story left me with feelings of horror, Pellegrino also brought out the heroism of ordinary people, too. This book answered some questions I’ve had for a long time about what led to Japanese aggression and how the United States arrived at the decision to drop atom bombs to end the war in the Pacific. The role communist Russia and Stalin played was not insignificant, as I have suspected for some time.
We are now over three generations past the events of August 6th and 9th of 1945, but this story must not die. In this age with Sharia governments threatening nuclear war, the lessons from Japan demand attention. What Pellegrino records is very painful to read, but essential to understanding what happened then and what could happen today with far worse effects. I believe the book should be required reading in history classes.
“A Song for Nagasaki” by Paul Glynn, S.M.
February 26, 2010
Last Sunday I found a book at the church library. It wasn’t on my top ten for Lent, but it was about Japan and a Japanese holy man who transformed others’ lives by his gentleness and forgiveness. Since I am interested in Japanese history, especially in what transpired to cause the terrible aggression that drew so many into World War II, I checked it out. What I ended up with is a moving conversion story that brings Christ’s teachings to life in a unique way and that has enriched my Lenten prayer.
A Song for Nagasaki: The Story of Takashi Nagai-Scientist, Convert, and Survivor of the Atomic Bomb tells of Dr. Paul Takashi Nagai, an extraordinary man raised in the rural area of Mitoya according to the teachings of Confucius and the Shinto religion which imbued him with filial reverence for ancestors and heroic stoicism. His mother and father taught him a love of learning by their example, and generous giving by their care for the medical needs of the peasants and townspeople often without payment.
Nagai entered into a spiritual quest while he attended medical school in Nagasaki – a quest that led him from Shintoism to atheism to Catholicism and ultimately to marriage with the daughter of the family which had been at the heart of the underground Church for the centuries of government persecution of Christians. The biography reveals how Nagai’s medical studies, service as a medic in the Japanese army during the occupation of Manchuria, and his return to become a pioneer of radiology research at Nagasaki University formed his spiritual growth.
Before the bomb exploded over the city that fateful August day, Nagai already had developed leukemia from his radiation exposure, yet he had refused to quit working. The cancer did not stop him from caring for victims of the inferno although he was wounded himself, and to his surprise and that of his fellow medical practitioners, his disease went into remission for a couple of years because of his exposure to the bomb’s radiation.
Nagai lost his beloved wife in the bombing of Nagasaki on August 9th, 1945, but his children who were farther from ground zero survived. Not long after, he moved into the rubble of the ruined city to study the effects of radiation on all life forms, constructing a tiny dwelling on the ground where his house once stood. He called his little abode “Nyoko-do“, meaning “as yourself hall” taken from Jesus’s words: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” It was one 6×6 room with a porch built by friends. He lived there with his children until he died.
Throughout the book Glynn interweaves Japanese history and customs into Nagai’s story, giving the reader a good understanding of the depth of this man. He describes well how Nagai brought not only physical healing but spiritual healing to the suffering and war-weary people. Determined not to be bitter or vengeful, he wrote articles and powerful books as a legacy for his children that became best-sellers throughout Japan. During the last four years of his life, he accomplished this lying on his back because of weakness and abdominal swelling caused by the cancer.
This book above all, is a story of love and forgiveness, of sanctity brought forth from horror. Many people from around the world, including Helen Keller journeyed to meet this unassuming man, who gave most of his earnings for the education and care of war orphans. His example continues to inspire and he is considered a saint by many Japanese people of all faiths.
If you are attracted to conversion stories, this book will not disappoint you. It is filled with the wonders of God’s grace and inspiration to overcome all bitterness, resentment, and desire for vengeance that plague the human heart. Nagai truly suffered with joy.
St. Jane of Valois
February 4, 2010
Today we honor St. Jane of Valois, surely an example of humility, persistence in prayer and also great charity. She was born in 1464 and died in 1505. A daughter of King Louis XI and Charlotte of Savoy, she was hated by her father from birth because he wanted a boy. Not only did he not get a boy, Jane was sickly and had some physical handicap. The king banished her to a country place where she was raised in a condition of grave neglect. But God had plans for His spurned and despised creature. She developed a deep devotion to the Blessed Mother, especially in the mystery of the Incarnation. The Angelus was her favorite prayer. One day Our Lady revealed to her that she would found a religious community dedicated to her.
St. Jane could not escape being a pawn in the hands of her father. Although he despised her, in a political scheme he betrothed her to his second cousin, Louis, Duke of Orleans, at the age of two months. They were married when Jane was nine. She remained his loyal and devoted wife for twenty-two years. Unfortunately, the Duke did not return her devotion. He had not wanted the marriage and hated her even though she was instrumental in obtaining his release from prison for treason. Upon taking the throne as Louis XII, he publicly humiliated her by treating her ill in front of the court, repudiating her and seeking an annulment of his marriage from Rome. He got the annulment on the grounds that the marriage had not been consummated and that he had not consented to it. St. Jane saw this as a great blessing and used her situation to found the Order of the Annunciation.
The charism of her order is to practice the ten virtues of Our Lady as found in the Gospels. They are:
- Most Pure (Mt 1:18, 20, 23; Lk 1:27,34)
- Most Prudent (Lk 2:19, 51)
- Most Humble (Lk 1:48)
- Most Faithful (Lk 1:45; Jn 2:5)
- Most Devout (Lk 1:46-7; Acts 1:14)
- Most Obedient (Lk 1:38; 2:21-2, 27)
- Most Poor (Lk 2:7)
- Most Patient (Jn 19:25)
- Most Merciful (Lk 1:39, 56)
- Most Sorrowful (Lk 2:35)
St. Jane also charged her community to pray for her husband, her father, and her brother as her legacy. Such forgiveness after the cruel treatment she received is awe-inspiring. St. Jane would be a great patron to ask for help in mastering the virtue of forgiveness. When she died, she was buried with the royal purple and a crown under her habit.

The Angelus, 1857, oil on canvas, Jean-Francois Millet
During St. Jane’s lifetime the Angelus prayer spread throughout France, helped by Pope Sixtus IV who was the first to attach an indulgence to it in 1475. Devotion to this prayer continues today, and is enshrined in the great Impressionist painting of Jean-Francois Millet (1814-1875) of the Barbizon school of landscape painting.
It is interesting that almost two-hundred years after Pope Sixtus encouraged the praying of the Angelus a painter named Jean-Francois created a work expressing the devotion to Our Lady that St. Jane (Jeanne) of Valois, whose spiritual directors were Franciscans, practiced.
We cannot escape suffering in this world so we might as well profit from it spiritually as did St. Jane, who though queen, was humiliated repeatedly by the very people who should have loved and cherished her. She is a great example of suffering with joy.
If you would like to know how to pray the chaplet of the Ten Virtues of the Blessed Mother, go here.
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